<p>Shaking and clutching his T-shirt, Myanmar soldier Kyaw recalled the violence he said he was told to use on people in his own community -- orders that triggered his escape to India.</p>.<p>Kyaw, whose name has been changed to protect his identity, was among 40 Myanmar nationals -- mostly police officers -- whom AFP met as they hid in an undisclosed location in the northeastern state of Mizoram.</p>.<p>At least 180 people have been killed in Myanmar since the February 1 coup, according to the Assistance Association for Political Prisoners monitoring group, as the junta has cracked down on relentless democracy rallies across the country.</p>.<p>The violence has seen more than 300 Myanmar nationals -- many of them police officers and their families, as well as two military personnel -- enter Mizoram, a local helping with the border crossings told AFP on Monday.</p>.<p><strong>Read | <a href="https://www.deccanherald.com/national/policemen-firemen-among-over-400-myanmar-nationals-seek-shelter-in-india-962505.html" target="_blank">Policemen, firemen among over 400 Myanmar nationals seek shelter in India</a></strong></p>.<p>Kyaw, a 24-year-old rifleman who said he had served in the military for around four years, is a member of the Chin, a mainly Christian minority in Myanmar.</p>.<p>He told AFP he had been ordered to inflict lethal violence among the Chin and inform on them.</p>.<p>"The military was giving orders to kill innocent people, who are like my own mother and father," he told AFP.</p>.<p>"Why should I kill my own people."</p>.<p>He said it took him four days to get to Mizoram on a motorcycle and on foot.</p>.<p>After calling home when he reached India, the father-of-two said he found out that his family house had been searched and his father arrested.</p>.<p>Another rifleman AFP spoke to said he also feared for his family's safety.</p>.<p>"My friends shot at protesters and I was told to shoot as well... But I cannot kill my people. So, I ran away at night," the 21-year-old said.</p>.<p><strong>Read | <a href="https://www.deccanherald.com/international/world-news-politics/how-myanmar-junta-is-using-martial-law-to-legitimise-crackdown-tactics-962220.html" target="_blank">How Myanmar junta is using martial law to legitimise crackdown tactics</a></strong></p>.<p>Others can take up to 10 days on foot to reach the remote and mountainous state along Myanmar's western border, including via a river, paddy fields, and sleeping in forests.</p>.<p>Those who make it are picked up by sympathetic locals, who help them get to relatives' homes or stay with others willing to shelter them from authorities.</p>.<p>But eight Myanmar citizens have been "pushed back", according to a statement last week by Assam Rifles, a national paramilitary force operating in the region.</p>.<p>Those AFP met said they had fled without their families because the journey was so difficult.</p>.<p>They arrived with just the clothes on their backs and what they could carry, and relied on locals who brought them food, blankets and cash.</p>.<p>One of them clutched a Burmese-language bible as they sat huddled together on mattresses and mats laid out on the floor of a partially constructed building.</p>.<p>Twenty-four-year-old policewoman Chewa, whose name has also been changed, broke down in tears as she shared her story.</p>.<p>She said the soldiers were being given orders to shoot protesters, with police assigned to give extra security.</p>.<p>"Even though we are the police, we are still citizens like the people. I didn't want to listen to those kinds of orders, and I did not dare to shoot," she said.</p>.<p>Chewa said she did not witness any police officers shooting civilians, but saw protest leaders in a small town in the remote highlands of Chin state being arrested.</p>.<p>Chewa said she joined the civil disobedience movement, involving tens of thousands of government workers across Myanmar.</p>.<p>"I want democracy back," she said, her voice choking with emotion.</p>.<p>"I want the international community to help our country... I am one of the lower-level (officers) so I don't have any power to do much so I joined the (movement) -- that's as much as I can do."</p>.<p>She said she feared for the welfare of her family, as she was the sole breadwinner.</p>.<p>Kyaw, Chewa and another police officer showed AFP their military or police ID cards to prove their identities.</p>.<p>AFP could not independently verify their specific claims.</p>.<p>As the group sat in silence, sunlight streaming through open windows, they held their right hands up in a three-fingered salute, a gesture inspired by the "Hunger Games" films and used by protesters.</p>.<p>"I don't want to go back yet to Myanmar," Kyaw said, still shaking.</p>.<p>"I am a soldier, so I am not safe there if I go back."</p>
<p>Shaking and clutching his T-shirt, Myanmar soldier Kyaw recalled the violence he said he was told to use on people in his own community -- orders that triggered his escape to India.</p>.<p>Kyaw, whose name has been changed to protect his identity, was among 40 Myanmar nationals -- mostly police officers -- whom AFP met as they hid in an undisclosed location in the northeastern state of Mizoram.</p>.<p>At least 180 people have been killed in Myanmar since the February 1 coup, according to the Assistance Association for Political Prisoners monitoring group, as the junta has cracked down on relentless democracy rallies across the country.</p>.<p>The violence has seen more than 300 Myanmar nationals -- many of them police officers and their families, as well as two military personnel -- enter Mizoram, a local helping with the border crossings told AFP on Monday.</p>.<p><strong>Read | <a href="https://www.deccanherald.com/national/policemen-firemen-among-over-400-myanmar-nationals-seek-shelter-in-india-962505.html" target="_blank">Policemen, firemen among over 400 Myanmar nationals seek shelter in India</a></strong></p>.<p>Kyaw, a 24-year-old rifleman who said he had served in the military for around four years, is a member of the Chin, a mainly Christian minority in Myanmar.</p>.<p>He told AFP he had been ordered to inflict lethal violence among the Chin and inform on them.</p>.<p>"The military was giving orders to kill innocent people, who are like my own mother and father," he told AFP.</p>.<p>"Why should I kill my own people."</p>.<p>He said it took him four days to get to Mizoram on a motorcycle and on foot.</p>.<p>After calling home when he reached India, the father-of-two said he found out that his family house had been searched and his father arrested.</p>.<p>Another rifleman AFP spoke to said he also feared for his family's safety.</p>.<p>"My friends shot at protesters and I was told to shoot as well... But I cannot kill my people. So, I ran away at night," the 21-year-old said.</p>.<p><strong>Read | <a href="https://www.deccanherald.com/international/world-news-politics/how-myanmar-junta-is-using-martial-law-to-legitimise-crackdown-tactics-962220.html" target="_blank">How Myanmar junta is using martial law to legitimise crackdown tactics</a></strong></p>.<p>Others can take up to 10 days on foot to reach the remote and mountainous state along Myanmar's western border, including via a river, paddy fields, and sleeping in forests.</p>.<p>Those who make it are picked up by sympathetic locals, who help them get to relatives' homes or stay with others willing to shelter them from authorities.</p>.<p>But eight Myanmar citizens have been "pushed back", according to a statement last week by Assam Rifles, a national paramilitary force operating in the region.</p>.<p>Those AFP met said they had fled without their families because the journey was so difficult.</p>.<p>They arrived with just the clothes on their backs and what they could carry, and relied on locals who brought them food, blankets and cash.</p>.<p>One of them clutched a Burmese-language bible as they sat huddled together on mattresses and mats laid out on the floor of a partially constructed building.</p>.<p>Twenty-four-year-old policewoman Chewa, whose name has also been changed, broke down in tears as she shared her story.</p>.<p>She said the soldiers were being given orders to shoot protesters, with police assigned to give extra security.</p>.<p>"Even though we are the police, we are still citizens like the people. I didn't want to listen to those kinds of orders, and I did not dare to shoot," she said.</p>.<p>Chewa said she did not witness any police officers shooting civilians, but saw protest leaders in a small town in the remote highlands of Chin state being arrested.</p>.<p>Chewa said she joined the civil disobedience movement, involving tens of thousands of government workers across Myanmar.</p>.<p>"I want democracy back," she said, her voice choking with emotion.</p>.<p>"I want the international community to help our country... I am one of the lower-level (officers) so I don't have any power to do much so I joined the (movement) -- that's as much as I can do."</p>.<p>She said she feared for the welfare of her family, as she was the sole breadwinner.</p>.<p>Kyaw, Chewa and another police officer showed AFP their military or police ID cards to prove their identities.</p>.<p>AFP could not independently verify their specific claims.</p>.<p>As the group sat in silence, sunlight streaming through open windows, they held their right hands up in a three-fingered salute, a gesture inspired by the "Hunger Games" films and used by protesters.</p>.<p>"I don't want to go back yet to Myanmar," Kyaw said, still shaking.</p>.<p>"I am a soldier, so I am not safe there if I go back."</p>